Orson Pratt writes apparent suicide note after discovering a scandal involving his wife Sarah Pratt, John C. Bennett, and Joseph.
Orson Pratt, Letter, July 14, 1842, MS 16976, Church History Library
The accompanying letter was wrote by Orson Pratt in the Printing office in presence of Geo. W. Thatcher on the evening of July 14th 1842 and found in the road in Munson St a little east of H. C. Kimballs on the following morning—by Wm Felshaw
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I am a ruined man! My future prospects are blasted! The testimony upon both sides seems to be equal: the one in direct contradiction to the other—how to decide I know not neither does it matter. For let it be either way my temporal <happiness> is gone in this world if the testimonies of my wife and others are true true then I have been deceived for 12 years past—my hopes are blasted & gone as it were in a moment—my long toils & labors have been in vain. If on the other hand the other testimonies are true my family are ruined forever. Where then is my hope in this world? It is gone—gone not to be recovered!! Oh God why is it thus with me! My sorrows are greater than I can bear! Where I am henceforth it matters not. Orson Pratt
The note accompaying Pratt's letter was written by William Clayton.